心疼

September 20, 2013



Visited my grandma at the hospital today. She wasn't doing well last night and was admitted in immediately... saw worry in my dad's eyes before he left to see her and I couldn't help but feel so sad as well.
Thankfully today she is better, but she is getting really old (88 years old) and whenever I hear her say things like  "反正我很快就要死" (in chinese, it means "I'm gonna die soon anyway") it makes me wanna cry... Am glad to hear she is pretty alert now although her right eye can't be opened. Today is mid autumn festival so she asked me if I had fun playing with lanterns and asked why I didn't go when I told her I didn't. 
So cute! Haha.

She used to take care of me when I was younger and I remember her as the first ever person to spoil me. Whatever hairstyle I wanted in kindergarden she would tie for me. Whatever I wanted to eat she would cook for me. Whatever toy I wanted she would bring me to Toys R Us to get.

Although we definitely drifted as I grew up and she moved back to my aunt's place, I guess there will always be a strong bond between us.

I really hope she stays strong. I know people have to go in the end, anyway, but... I don't like this feeling.

All the more we gotta learn to cherish.

7 comments:

  1. Isn't it rather insensitive of you to post such a devastating photo of your grandmother in the hospital? And the fact that you even have the mood to take a photo of her in such a state is terrible - just for the sake of documenting your day/gaining more sympathetic votes/readership so you earn more.

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    1. first of all i wld never use anyone in my life be it friends or family to earn ANYTHING
      second of all, she was posing for the pic!!!!! she said she doesn't wanna smile so wanna act like she's sleeping w my carebear. LOL.
      she was alr better, joking w me and complaining abt my dad.

      if she was in a terrible state, i wldn't even hv the mood to take a pic either

      i know what to do, when to do, and i don't need you to teach me but thanks anyway.

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  2. i agree with the above comment. So insensitive and youre already talking about 'I really hope she stays strong. I know people have to go in the end, anyway, but... I don't like this feeling.' shouldnt you be more positive for your grandma for goodness sake

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    1. i'm speaking in general abt her age, and she is NOT dying yet.

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  3. Stay with her more often! Visit her:)

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    1. she's getting discharged pretty soon - i will! thanks!

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  4. Hope she's getting better, Rachel. May god bless her :)
    Anyway, how much is your chanel bangle??? The one that's silver with gold logo around it.

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