November 7, 2013

There are some things you simply will never understand until you grow up. You see people who choose to be bad, people who are good through and through, and you see all sorts of other people who are a mix. Some people you love, some you dislike. Some people you sometimes wish you didn't ever have to meet.
Things were definitely simpler when we were younger - no responsibilities, no heartbreak, and the only disappointment would be if you didn't get the toy you wanted. They tell you money is important, like an education, and if you can marry rich, marry rich. They tell you it's a tough world out there, and it is. And I don't and can't blame you if you had to learn to protect yourself. 
But there is no smoke without fire, and when you do the things you know you shouldn't do, you know karma will find you in its way. In time. Or maybe bad karma just simply followed you to this life.
My religion doesn't teach me to believe in karma but I do. I've seen it happen way too many times. It is real. 

Do I want to be successful, do I want money, do I want to live the dream? 
Of course I do.

But do I want to lose myself in that process, do I want to lose the people who love me, and whom I love? Do I want to lose what is real as real can be?

I don't even have to remind myself of how blessed I am everyday. I must have done something right before I came into this world at this time. I am loved, and I love everyday. And no matter how much I whine, I know it. And I am happy. There is nothing more to ask for except the strength, courage and ability to be the best I can be.

#3amthoughts #pardonme #itwouldprobablynotmakeasmuchsensetoyouasitdoesforme