January 1, 2016

It's been a really long time since I last penned down my heartfelt thoughts here..
I guess today would be a better day than any other day.

 In 2015, I learnt a lot.
And much like all the other years of my life, I loved and I lost, I laughed and cried.

I learnt that I still have a lot to learn in being a better friend, and that I truly still don't know what I really want in life, and am okay with that. There's still tons of exploring to do. I just know that I want to spend more of my days laughing instead of worrying/thinking too much as I so often do.
I learnt that even if someone loves you, that love doesn't always help you and can sometimes hurt you. And that sometimes, you don't really have a choice but to make that choice to take those lessons and those memories with you, and move on.
I learnt that sometimes people can change, too. I reconnected with some friends I lost, and I'm thankful for it because I didn't realise just how much I missed having them around. And we still laugh as much together as we used to. You know who you are.

I learnt to let go, knowing that if it's meant to be, it'll always be.

"Although this year has been tough, I also know that this year's struggle and pain will turn into strength and wisdom for the years to come. I have learned that some lovers are meant to be temporary, that a short-lived lover can sometimes be the most beautiful. That we should cherish every other human being, listen to them, learn from them, teach them, and love all of them, no matter what. I have learned that losing yourself is not always terrible, that sometimes you have to experience being at your lowest to want to crawl back up to your highest. I have learned who I want to be again, having been a person whom I do not. I want to say Thank you to those who have loved me this year through my worst, knowing what I am capable of at my best. Thank you to my family for never giving up on me, and once again proving to be my truest friends. You are all beautiful. This is not a New Years resolution, this is a promise to myself to never stop loving me again."
- Raven Jewels

To all of you who have been reading my blog, or following me on my other social media channels... Thank you for reading and giving me a voice, no matter how small it really is.
Know that one of the many resolutions I have this year is to open up again to all of you.

Always remember : You can be whomever you wanna be, you deserve to love and be loved right, you can create magic and make a change in this world, and also be that kind soul to someone in need. Just keep fighting for your dreams, and love bigger everyday.



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