To be free

October 20, 2016


It seems like I begin every personal post with an apology for disappearing from this space for too long.. I know I should do so much better but in all fairness, I do update my snapchat (rchlwngx) and Instagram everyday so if you don't already follow me there for constant updates, please do ^.^

A lot has happened since the last time I updated, and it's kinda crazy to me how good 2016 has been to be. I am so, so thankful everyday. For all the love, laughter, and opportunities I've gotten this year. Thank you, Universe!

I've been busy with work, making happy memories and being a new aunt.

But it's not to say I haven't had bad days either. I've been getting texts asking me if I'm fine, and I just want to say that despite my crazy captions and updates, I really am!

I know there are people who wonder what goes on in my romantic life, more than anything, because I do post updates on my friends and family often, but I never post anything about anyone in particular...  In fact, most of my friends don't even know who I'm dating because I'm so, so private about it and also really shy about it when they ask lol. I just think it's better this way, keeping it between who matters which would be just us.

I've fallen in love this year, even when I thought I wasn't going to, and I had good times, too, with others who turned out to work better as friends. And nothing much has changed since my last post about this : I'm still not into looking to have a status or label on it, I just want to be happy with this person everyday and not stress over things like this or 'the future'. 

It's funny how I'm being told that at 23, I'm old enough to be looking for someone to settle down with and I should stop looking to date for just love and happiness because everyone on my Facebook feed is getting engaged, married or having babies. I was also 'lectured' by someone after saying 'Who's looking for a husband?' when I was asked why I didn't want to be with someone who was financially stable and who was very willing to be good to me... I don't understand this. 

As a person who knows what she wants and what she doesn't, I don't think anyone should have the right to tell me why and who I should date or say that it's wrong to date someone if they're not marriage material. Yes, someone financially stable may be able to give me a comfortable life, but if he can't be my bestfriend as much as my lover, and we can't laugh together at the littlest things, then I don't want that. 

"There are too many mediocre things in life, love shouldn't be one of them."

This holds true for me, I don't want a mediocre love, I want a 'I can't live without you' kind of love, and I'm good where I am. So please, stop telling me how to live my life. You see it as a mess, I see it as chasing magic. I'm perfect where I am.

x

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